2010 here we come!
say goodbye to 2009!
hopely good things will happen in 2010
and what had happen in 2009 is our past
lots of thing happen
that we didn't realize that
we're also grew older...
hahaha
i always hope that
when i'm one year older
i'm one year wiser...
but i think nothing had change
really..nothing..

i think i don't know what to write in this blog...
but its fun to write in it...
so i just write something
that comes out of my mind...
it might sounded like a poem...
but i don't care what you think about it...
thanks for reading...

i don't know what kind of world i'm living
but surely i feel comfortable in it..
i'm always like a kid...
playing...
day dreaming...
and make a fool of myself...
i think i never take something serious in life...
i like to do things the way i do
ignoring if it is right or wrong...


i would like to know the answer...
but i'm scared of knowing it...
i know i'm a coward
but i don't want to admit it
i try to face the bitternes
eventhough it will hurt me a lot
i try to endure the feelings of loneliness
and hide in a fake of smile

my life kind of boring
every where i look
the same face and place appear
but when i fall asleep
i entered different world
with differrent faces
that makes me feel in ease

hahahahaha
i think i really don't know what to write in this blog
but i promise to do better next year...
especially with my exams...
wish me good luck guys!!!
and enjoy your holiday to the last minute...
class is just around the corner...
huhuhu...
had to leave home again...
but glad to think that i'll meet my friends again...
see you soon ~_~

it seems like a month i stop on blogging...
the reason...well exam la..
now i'm in the mood of holiday...
2 months!!
it's quite long~
i felt so bored...
my brother is having his spm next week~
my father just came back from kl..
but not for holiday...
he just want to sent my mothers car for service~
my dad's car is still on service for a month...
so my family didn't planned to go for a holiday...
i asked my aunt if she could bring me to genting < i've never when there >
i kept on asking my other brother to go out for shopping~
but do you want to know what he said to me,
there's a lot of my freind going out that day, i feel ashamed in front of them when walking with mad people...

he said that i have an unsound mind!!
cruel!!
since that day i don't have the heart to talk with him....

i can't wait some news from my aunt regarding our trip to genting...
hope i can make it this year~_~ 

I'M NOT GOING BACK TO MY KAMPUNG FOR RAYA.....HUHUHU...
WHY??
ON MY WAY BACK HOME~FRIDAY EVENING~I WENT INTO AN ACCIDENT....
THANKFULLY NO ONE WAS HURT...

THE STORY BEGINS LIKE THIS....

AS MY DAD WORKS IN PJ, I DON'T WANT TO BOTHER HIM TO COME AND TAKE ME AT INTI. SO I TOOK THE KTM TO KL SENTRAL. THANK GOD THAT THE KTM FROM NILAI WAS NOT SO CROWDED THAT I MANAGE TO GET A SIT FOR MY ONE HOUR JOURNEY. AFTER REACHING KL SENTRAL, I HAD TO TAKE THE LRT TO TAMAN JAYA, THE NEAREST STATION FROM MY DAD'S WORK PLACE. I HAD A FEELING THAT ITS GOING TO RAIN THIS EVENING AS IT WAS SO HOT DURING THE NOON. I'M A DAUGHTER TO A METEOROLOGIST SO I KNOW LA...

I HAD TO QUEUE (A LONG LONG ONE) TO BUY THE TICKET. IT WAS ONLY A 15 MINUTES RIDE SO I DON'T CARE IF I HAD TO STAND....HEHEHE
WHEN I ARRIVE AT TAMAN JAYA STATION, MY FATHER CALL AND SAID THAT HE WAS WAITING FOR ME AT THE BUS STOP. I QUICKLY RAN DOWN (NOT RUNNING BUT WAITING ELEVATOR TO GO DOWN....HAHAHA) I MET WITH MY DAD AND WE WENT TO BUY NASI BRIYANI BUKHARA FOR OUR OPEN FAST MEAL AS WE PREDICT THAT WE ARE GOING TO OPEN IN THE CAR AS THERE WILL BE LOTS OF CAR GOING OUT OF KL ~BALIK KAMPUNG~

IT WAS RAINING HEAVILY THAT EVENING (AS WHAT I PREDICT). I ASK MY DAD IF HE COULD SEE PROPERLY IN THE RAIN, I WAS SO WORRIED CAUSE HE CAN'T SEE NEAR OBJECTS. THE RAIN GIVE US A LIMITED EYE SIGHT. WE MANNAGE TO GET OUT KL SAFELY AND DECIDE TO TAKE A BREAK AT GOMBAK FOR OUR SOLAT ASAR. THEN WE CONTINUE OUR JOURNEY ALONG THE ROAD OF KARAK HIGHWAY.

IT WAS A TOUGH ROAD AS IT WAS SLIPPERY, MY DAD TRY HIS BEST TO CONTROL THE BRAKES AND WATCH HIS DISTANCE BETWEEN THE CAR IN FRONT OF HIM. KARAK HIGHWAY IS A SNAKE-ROAD TO ME AND ALSO HILLY (BERBUKIT LA). I COULD HEAR THE BRAKES TRY VERY HARD TO STOP THE CAR. MY DAD WAS VERY CLOSE TO THE IN FRONT HIM BUT HE MANNAGE TO BRAKE AND AVOID FROM COLLIDING WITH IT. THAT WAS A RELIEF.....

SUDDENLY.....BANG!! WHAT'S HAPPENING!!?? MY  DAD WENT OUT OF THE CAR AND......OMG OUR CAR!!! IT WAS HIT BY A CAR BEHIND US. MY DAD TALK TO THE PERSON BEHIND US, SAIFUL WAS HIS NAME, ABOUT THE MATTER. WANT TO GO OUT AND TAKE A LOOK OF THE CAR BUT MY DAD WARN ME TO STAY INSIDE. A CAR CAME AND STOP TO HELP MY FATHER AND MR. SAIFUL WITH THE PROBLEM. I COULD SEE THAT MY DAD WAS VERY UPSET WITH THE CAR.....HE CAME TO ME AND SAID THAT WE CAN'T GO BACK FOR RAYA....WHY IS IT SERIOUS (THE DAMAGE)?? HE DIDN'T SAY A WORD SO I ASSUME THAT IT WAS BAD, I COULD SEE HOLES FROM INSIDE AT THE BACK OF THE SEAT. THANK GOD THAT IT WAS ONLY BOTH, ME AND MY DAD, IN THE CAR. AT FIRST, TWO OF MY FRIENDS FROM SHAH ALAM SUPPOSE TO COME AND RIDE WITH US BUT THEY CANCELLED IT IN THE LAST MINUTE.

I DON'T WANT TO TALK MUCH.....I'M IN MY ROOM EATING SOME OF THE KUIH RAYA RIGHT NOW....

SO TO ALL SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN AND A HAPPY HOLIDAY....~_~

I now that everyone here does not know about it. Well I'm not sure about the story very well but this is what I heard....

Second Hand was a story where two beloved couple united from a different stage of life. Elliot the King’s son falls in love with an ordinary girl from a village. As there was a big difference between them, the King tried to separate them by sending his son to war and the girl waited for him for several months until she got news that Elliot was dead. She cried in front of the church and beg the God and the Goddess to give back Elliot’s life and take her life instead. The God and the Goddess heard the girl’s voice and granted her wishes. And a miracle happened where Elliot came to life. He quickly went back to the village and realized what had happened. Thus, he also did the same as the girl begs the God and the Goddess to take his life instead of hers. The God and The Goddess were very touched of their strong bond of love. Thus, the God and the Goddess freeze the time for both, Elliot and the girl, so that they could live happily together.

Is'nt it sweet??

I hope you'll love it....

Usually, when you see time travel feature in a movie it's all about the big things: changing history, creating paradoxes, making Terrible Things happen. Here, it's all about the small things – getting to desert before your sister, getting a second chance on that exam – but the consequences for Makoto Konono turn out to be no less severe…

When 17-year-old Makoto Konno gains the ability to, quite literally, "leap" backwards through time, she immediately sets about improving her grades and preventing personal mishaps. However, she soon realises that changing the past isn't as simple as it seems, and eventually, will have to rely on her new powers to shape the future of herself and her friends.

When Makoto Konono fell on a strange pendant while sneaking around the science storeroom, she didn't think much of it. Later that day, though, when the brakes on her bicycle failed and she was thrown into the path of a speeding train, it became an important little detail, when her flight through the air became a jump through time, saving her from certain death. Discovering that she now has the ability to literally jump through time, Makoto sets about making good use of her power – by turning matchmaker for her friends, seizing the opportunity to retake her exams when they don't go well, and making sure that she's always at the front of the queue for desert. But as anyone who's ever seen a film about time-travel knows, all those little changes can add up to something far more serious – as Makoto's about to find out…

Makoto's a tomboy, who far prefers hanging out with the boys and playing baseball to doing more girly things. Her best friends are Chiaki Mamiya and potential love-interest Kousuke Tsuda, who often ends up as the sounding-board for her problems. It's Tsuda who also ends up as the "beneficiary" of her jumping – her classmate Yuri is in love with him, and despite her own feelings for Tsuda she uses her ability to help the two get together. A noble motive, tht goes along with some other jumps that have rather less noble intentions. Strangely, when Makoto tells her aunt of her new power, she encourages Makoto to make best use of it, and that's when things begin to go wrong.

But in many ways, the story isn't about the jumping through time – it's about Makoto learning to take responsibility for her actions, and doing what she can to put things right once she realises that she's overstepped the mark. It takes a near disaster before Makoto gets to that point, but get there she does, and there are a few surprises to be revealed about the source of her ability while she tries to correct the flow of time.

It's also a story about relationships, as Makoto has to deal with how she feels for both Chiaki (who isn't as much of a bystander to attempts as he initially seems) and Tsuda and how her jumping subtley changes the bonds between them. It's these more human aspects to the story that are what make it so appealing to watch – the time-travel provides a hook, to draw you into Makoto's life, and then the more human side takes over to become the main event. It's a mix that works well, and the result is a movie that you just want to watch from beginning to end.

Here’s a summary of the entire movie.




Mika(Aragaki Yui) is a girl who has never fallen in love before, but when she loses her handphone before and gets it back, her summer holidays were occupied with phone calls and mails from a stranger. It turns out that the stranger was a schoolmate of hers, Hiro(Miura Haruma). They soon fall in love and before long engage in sexual activity. Just as their relationship was going on well, Mika was kidnapped and raped by a group of guys instructed by Hiro’s ex-girlfriend, Saki, as a form of revenge. Hiro gets all furious and goes out to get revenge, but the matter was no longer further pursued when Mika was pregnancy test was negative.

They soon engage in more sexual activity, resulting in Mika getting pregnant, but she loses it after a fall caused by Saki’s push. Devastated, she and Hiro both “built” a grave for their unborn child and promise to go back to it annually on 24th December, the date of the loss of their child.

Soon after that incident, Hiro started avoiding Mika, and they eventually break up. Mika gets another boyfriend, but is still in deeply in love with Hiro. When she discovers that Hiro was avoiding her because he was diagnosed with cancer, she leaves her poor boyfriend to be with Hiro in his last days. Hiro dies, and Mika has to to continue living on strongly in this world.



HERE'S MIKA AND HER NEW BOYFRIEND....HIS SO SO NICE....AND GENTLE...

I recommend thid movie to all Korean or Japanese drama fans.....
Hope you'll like it...

I tried BUDDYTV quiz on which SUPERNATURAL character are you and guess......I'm DEAN WINCHESTER....love you JENSEN ACKLES!!!

Here's a picture of him when he was little...his wearing the light brown jacket....Is'nt he so adorable......

Eyes Rutherford


Series: Spiral

Age: 17

Notes: One of the mysterious "Blade Children", cool, collected, and an outstanding pianist. He is neither a clear-cut enemy or ally in this show. He is only 17, but you sure wouldn't know that by his actions!

He's got the hair, the black clothes, and the voice of Ishida Akira (Saiyuki's Hakkai)... it makes for a very nice package ^_^

here's other character in SPIRAL :

FINAL FANTASY VERSUS XIII

Noctis Lucis Caelum, nicknamed Noct, will be a playable character and the protagonist of Final Fantasy Versus XIII. He is a prince, the last heir to a dynasty ruling over the last kingdom to control crystals, and from his throne, defends his kingdom from marauders and barbarians who seek to conquer the city and claim the crystals by force. He has a number of companions, including his driver and a fugitive, and his family is known to operate in a similar manner to the modern-day mafia. Though he doesn't wish to fight her, circumstances force him to do battle with Stella Nox Fleuret, and he is also speculated to be opposed by a mysterious man robed entirely in white.

Noctis displays unearthly skills in battle, wielding a variety of weapons including swords, spears, axes, and firearms, among others, though his primary weapon appears to be a falchion fashioned with an engine at the hilt. He can conjure the weapons into the air and wield them by hand or by telekinesis, through the power of the Crystals, allowing him to form a wall of weapons which can act as a shield. He has also displayed the ability to teleport, seemingly to the locations of his weapons, allowing him to throw one of his weapons a great distance and reappear where it lands seconds later, the weapon in hand. In battle, his hair and eye colors change depending on which weapons and abilities he uses, though the reason for this has not been revealed.

Noctis is said to be a very shy person but tries to hide it by "acting cool," as seen in the TGS footage where he and Stella had a short conversation about the two of them seeing a form of "light". Stella goes on to explain a legend of Tenebrae, that when a person is able to see the "light", they will receive the powers of the dead from the Goddess Etro. The footage was shown to give the people an idea of the two characters' personalities. In the footage, Noctis is also able to speak briefly with a painting of the goddess, asking who she is.

- Noctis -

We planned to go for a RAYA SHOPING at KL. At first I thought of going to Jalan TAR, Qila suggested TIMES SQUARE and at last we came up with MID VALLEY!!!
Actually I had planned of going for a RAYA SHOPING long time ago (before I went to INTI) I love going out with friends shoping so I asked some of my friends to go out with me. Unfornutely, they can't come...huhuhu..I felt very sad especially for *********I'm glad that my close friend during my time at TKC agree to come. So i told her to wait us at MID VALLEY at 10.00a.m. I estimated that to arrive at 10 a.m. there I had to take the KTM at 9.00a.m. cause it took about an hour from NILAI to MID VALLEY.
So I set my clock 8.00a.m. to get up for shower but guess what happened??
8.00A.M. "Second hours so many days....(Kris Allen song-NO BOUNDARIES)" SNOOZE.....
8.10A.M. "Second hours so many days....SNOOZE.....
8.20A.M. "Second hours so many days.....SNOOZE....
8.30A.M. " Nagareru toki no nakama tataku....(ALUMINA from ANIME : DEATH NOTE)
DAD'S CALLING!!! "BARU BANGUN TIDUR!!??, BILA BERTOLAK DARI INTI??, DENGAN SIAPA KELUAR HARI NI??" Dad!! one by one la...
"yup, I just woke up(after seeing my phone : DAD'S CALLING), when?? em...not sure...9a.m. kot....whom?? my roomate...n Syikin but there some AUP students to....but they planned to go to MASJID INDIA....
After I had a long chat with my dad, I quickly went to the bathroom and when I got back I thought that Qila had awake but nope she's still asleep like a baby...hehehe...
I don't dare to wake her up so while waiting I online...
I was too 'addicted' with the net until I notice that it was 10.00a.m.!!!!!
OMG!!! Syikin must have arrived at MID VALLEY!!!
I noticed an sms had arrive about 8.55a.m. It's from Syikin, she told me that she would come late. Thank God!!
Then I heard Qila's ringtone....Finally she awake!!!!
While she was having a bath, I quickly change into my outfit. I kind a lazy to iron my shirt so I pick a dark one, people can't notice it....the non-ironing shirt...hahaha

CUT TO SHORT.....
We arrived at MID VALLEY at 12.30p.m. Syikin had been there for about an hour so she strol in the MPH. We met her there, in jubah. We went into JUSCO. There was a lot of sales (discount) compare to METROJAYA. Syikin asked for my help on what to buy for her friend, her boy friend...(she didn't said he is....) Well, I prefer something that I can keep for a long time an as we were in JUSCO I told her to give him a shirt or maybe a tie or maybe a T-shirt.


TO BE CONTINUED.....I'M SLEEPY HUHUHU.....JUST GOT BACK FROM MID AT 11.00P.M.
NIGHT~

Thank God the Spec Math test 1 had past. Even though it was only a 4 question test in 2 hours, I can answer them well, huhuhu... My mom sms me that I should do a lot of exercise cause math is not something to be memorize, ok mom.... I was very excited today to go to the Pasar Malam at Tmn Chempaka cause the Bazar beside the Pasar Besar (it seems had been abandon) lack with variety, what I meant was the food. So after the Spec Math test we set out to the bus stop but it seems that there was a lot of people were going so we decided to take the next bus. We went for solat first and again we set out to the bus stop, waiting for the INTI bus. Soo came and ask me, "Hey, when is the INTI bus will arrive??" 6.15p.m. "Are you sure?? There is a new INTI bus schedule, I'm not sure when it will come, thats why I ask you...." oooo...There was a new INTI bus schedule, we thought the bus would come late as it was 6.10p.m. so I decide to take the 'green bus' (I don't know what bus it is...hahaha) but Qila said to wait for the INTI bus cause if it does came we don't have to waste money on the bus....INTI BUS IS FREE....
Far far away, I could see the INTI bus slowly came right at us. There was a lot of people and not all of them could hop in. Thank God we manage to bust in!!
The bus move slowly as there was a lot of cars coming back and forth along the road to ktm or should I say the road to the Pasar Malam... We arrive there about 6.35p.m. and off we went to the Pasar Malam. This what I want!!! There were a lot of stalls here selling different kind of food, like wet and dry food, cloths, etc. I can't help myself to stop by and look each of them. I bought a new tudung today, well actually I want to match it with the tudung I bought before cause the tudung kind of transparent...hahaha...so I pick a black one for only RM5. Then after half away along the stalls Qila remind me that we would missed the INTI bus if we haven't bought anything. Qila and I each bought nasi ayam, special made in Negeri Sembilan... Then, Qila went to buy Roti John. From there we could see the bus stop and we thought of crossing the drain. I said why not we just wait at the end of the Pasar Malam but Qila refused so we jump. Its quiet steep for me so I had to take off my sandals cause I'm wearing high heel (well everyone knows that). I manage to walk down and I had to jump the "big drain". There was a wooden(plywood maybe....I'm not sure what it is). I intend to step on it so I could jump over the drain BUT SPLASH!!!!
I was engulf by water...DARK WATER AND SMELLY TOO!!!
I was affraid that I can't get up the drain, Qila tried to pull me out but I can't!! I could feel the pain on my feet every time I tried to climb up the drain. Thank God an INTI guy saw me and help me out. I was going to thank him but he just disappear with his girlfriend.
My food was ruined and I left my tudung in the drain. I had to jump in again into the drain if I want my tudung back. The 'green bus' pass by and we had no choiced as the INTI bus had passed away...Really, REALLY PASSED AWAY....
I entered the bus and paid with my wet dirty RM1 for the bus fee. I can't myself laughing (in my heart I was screaming) how dumb I was. I ignored everyone in the bus cause I had the feeling of them staring at me. In my heart I kept on saying the bus to hurry up. I'm wet, dirty, smelly too. I can't stand myself any longer so after the bus stop at the INTI gate I quickly rush to my room...A2-34. I ask for Qila's helped to get my 'things'. I got to go for a shower!!!!
Berbuka time is near but I'm not ready with anything to eat so....what left was my Mee Maggi (choose TOM YAM or Maggi Goreng - My dad gonna killed me if he knew about this)


So Happy Berbuka Time....^_^

TODAY IS OUR 52 YEARS OF MERDEKA!!

PEOPLES GATHERD AT THE PARLIMEN FOR THE MERDEKA CELEBRATION. I CAN STILL HERE THEY SANG A LOT OF MERDEKA SONGS. EVEN THOUGH I'M NOT AT THE PARLIMEN RIGHT NOW BUT THE TELEVISION SHOWED WHAT THE EVENTS ARE NOW.

I THOUGH OF HEARING SUDIRMANS VOICE NOW BUT IT WAS NOT HIM...HAHA

IT DOES LOOK A LIKE. I REMEMBERED MY DAYS DURING MERDEKA CELEBRATION AT SCHOOL. I WAS A CHOIR SINGER SO I ALWAYS SANG FOR CERTAIN EVENTS ESPECIALLY MERDEKA. THE MOST MEMORIAL ONE IS WHEN I WAS AT TKC. WE CELEBRATE IT WITH THE STUDENTS FROM SINGAPORE. WE SHOWED THEM THE MEANING OF OUR MERDEKA. I REMEBERED ON THAT NIGHT WHEN MY CHOIR GROUP WAS GOING TO LEAVE THE STAGE I STEPPED ON MY FRENS SKIRT AND SHE WAS GOING TO FALL INFRONT OF THE HONOURED GUESS. ARGH!! THANK GOD SHE MANNAGED TO BALANCE HERSELF. I CAN'T STOP MYSELF SAYING SORRY TO HER.

WHEN I WAS IN SMK SERI MAHKOTA, OTHER THAN GIVING A CHOIR I WAS SELECTED TO RECITE A POEM THAT DAY. WELL I'M QUIET NERVOUS AT FIRST BUT AFTER I GOT USED WITH FOR 2 YEARS MY NERVOUS WAS GONE. TEACHERS SAID THAT I HAD A LOUD VOICE THAT I DON'T HAVE TO USE THE MICROPHONE. I REMEBERED MY AUNT SAID THAT," DJA, DULU KO TELAN MIKE, SKRG KO MKN SPEAKER PLAK!!". I THOUGHT I DID'NT SCREAM IN THE HOUSE OR DO I?? I DON'T KNOW.

HERE ARE SOME SONGS THAT I LIKE :

PUTRA PUTRI

* PUTRA PUTRI NEGARA JAYA

   BERSATU BERPADU TENAGA

   PADAMU HARAPANNYA BANGSA
   SEANDAI CITA-CITA

   PUTRA PUTRI SEJATI MULIA
   KOTA BANDAR DESA SEPASTI
   SERUAN JASMANI DEWI SUCI
   BAKTI JASA JIWA MU

  MENEGAKKAN NUSA
  MENDIRIKAN BANGSA
  PUTRA PUTRI DEWI
  CEKAL GAGAH BERANI

REPEAT *
SEANDAI CITA-CITA


SETIA

DEMI NEGARA YANG TERCINTA
DICURAHKAN BAKTI PENUH SETIA
DEMI RAJA YANG DISANJUNG TINGGI
KESETIAAN TAK BERBELAH BAGI

KEPADA PEMIMPIN KEPADA RAKYAT
KHIDMAT DIBERI PENUH TAAT
SAMA BEKERJA SAMA BERUSAHA
SETIA BERKHIDMAT UNTUK SEMUA

RELA BERKORBAN APA SAHAJA
AMANAH BANGSA TETAP DI JAGA
KAMI BERIKRAR PENUH SETIA
UNTUK AGAMA, BANGSA DAN NEGARA




TANAH PUSAKA

SUNGGUH GEMILANG NEGERIKU
YANG KU PUJA
OH TANAH MALAYSIA
DI MERATA DUNIA
HARUM SEMERBAK NAMA MU
OH MALAYSIA

AMAN MAKMUR KAYA RAYA
SELAMA-LAMA
HIDUP MAJU JAYA
KAU TANAHA PUSAKA
NEGERIKU YANG BERDAULAT DAN MERDEKA

* TANAH PUSAKA BERTUAH
   BERBAGAI BANGSA DI DALAMANYA
   HIDUP AMAN DAN BERSAMA

   BERSATU KERJA UNTUK MALAYSIA

MUSUH MELANGGAR KU GEMPUR

SUNGGUH RELAKU GUGUR KERANA..

OH TANAHA PUSAKA

BIAR PUTIH TULANG JANGAN PUTIH MATA

REPEAT *

MALAYSIAKU GEMILANG

MARILAH KITA SEMUA

ATAS NAMA NEGARA BANGSA

DENGAN TEKAD MULIA

MAJU BERWAWASAN
MENCIPTA KEAGUNGAN

BERPADULAH KITA SEMUA

DI DALAM SATU SUARA

DENGAN DEGUPAN MERDEKA

MENJULANG BUDAYA BANGSA

UNTUK MALAYSIA TERCINTA

* MALAYSIAKU GEMILANG

   MERDEKANYA TERBILANG
   BERDAULAT DAN MAKMUR

   BERJAYA KAMI SYUKUR

   MALAYSIA, KEBEBASAN KEDAMAIAN

   MALAYSIA, KEBAHAGIAAN KABANGGAAN

   MALAYSIA, CEMERLANG TERBILANG

   MALAYSIA KU GAGAH GEMILANG

REPEAT *

As I am going back to INTI tomorrow, I went for a little shopping at Kuantan. I bought a lot of foods for my days Sahur and Berbuka at INTI. I can't imagine what its like having terawih there. I can't wait to see it. Anyway guess what I had buy today...

I'm packing my things right now but actually I'm giving the last touch on my homework....hahahaha

I admit that I always do things at the last minute, well the Malaysians does...and so am I.

To night is the independents EVE....

I don't know if they would be any fire works tonight...

my dad said that they will not celebrate for the EVE only tomorrow MERDEKA celebration at the PARLIMEN...

I don't no what does it feel like being in this kind of occasion. What I ment was being there at the MERDEKA celebration. Crowded with people. I don't like crowded places but it may be different in different occasion right. I do like to be in the book fest or pc fair, or maybe funfair but I never went to MERDEKA celebration or JOMHEBOH or anything crowded. I really want to go but I never had the oppurtunity. Why??

I don't know...

Well, I'm wishing HAPPY 52 YEARS OF MERDEKA!!!! HOPE MALAYSIA WILL CONTINUE TO LIVE IN PEACEFUL AND HARMONY.....

I'm going back to INTI!!!!
One week felt like a second..
I just remembered how I did my 'cleaning' before leaving my room...
and now...I'll be back there again...
I hope it will not be filled with dust...
I don't know but my room seem to catch dust everyday...
I hate cleaning and I had to force myself in doing it (even though once a week)
Huh...I'm packing now...
and it seems that my bag is full!!!
with food of course...
I intend to bring it for my sahur but it seems that my bag can't hold the weight...hahaha
well I bring a lot of books to read (but not all books I used) so I had to bring another bag to put my things...huhuhu
****
This is my last night having dinner with my family....
sleeping on my King size bed...alone...
having my last privacy in this room...
hahaha
how sad it is...





but I noticed that next week (monday) is a holiday!!
Nuzul Quran...
and I'm planning to go back home with my dad...
he had offer me a ride...
I can't wait to meet **** again...

TO ALL PISCES!!


I THINK EVERYONE EVER READ THIS RIGHT?



PISCES SOUL

WATER FLOWS THROUGH RIVERS

AS IT FLOW THROUGH MY EYES

THEY SAY A PISCES DREAMER

HAS LIVED OTHER LIVES



THERE’S SOMETHING MORE

THERE, I CAN SEE IT CLEAR

NOT SOMETHING YOU HOLD IN YOUR HAND

THE END OF THE CIRCLE

IT ENDS WITH ME INTERNITY



THE POET AND THE DREAMER

CREATING PISCES FLOW

THERE IS WORLD THAT WE POSSESS

THAT ALL OF YOU CAN’T KNOW



THERE’S SOMETHING MORE

THERE, I CAN SEE IT CLEAR

NOT SOMETHING YOU HOLD IN YOUR HAND

THE END OF THE CIRCLE

IT ENDS WITH ME INTERNITY



BEYOND JUST WHAT YOU CAN SEE LIES DARKNESS

MY LIFE IT CHANGES WITH EVERYTHING AROUND ME

SOMETIMES I NEDD TO GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE

IF YOU ARE A SOUL IN NEED

IF YOU NEED COMPASSION

I WILL STAND UP LIKE A WALL RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE

I CAN TELL WHAT OTHERS CAN’T TELL

YES, I CAN READ YOUR MIND

PISCES BELONGS IN ANOTHER WORLD AT ANOTHER TIME

NEPTUNE RULES MY HOURS

DEVOTED BY YOUR SIDE

THE HEARTS OF THE PISCES SOUL LIVES

THROUGH TIME, THROUGH TIME...

CHARACTER REVIEW ON THE DROVER PLAYED BY HUGH JACKMAN IN THE FILM AUSTRALIA

Being a drover means the person does not have to rely on others. He is the boss and he is the worker, no
one can hires him or fire him. This shows that the drover is an independent person. He is a freelance cowboy who makes his living steering thousands of head of cattle across hundreds of miles of outback. He is a horseman who prefers to live under the heat sun, a person who can manage himself to live in it. Seriously it’s hard to live in a desert like country with a low average of rain pour. So it’s hard to find water and to feed ourselves but the drover could stand the challenge even though his alone droving, he still can survive by himself.

Other than that, being a Drover also means that he is a brave man. He could face any challenges during the droving period. During the time where he and his groups were on their way droving Lady Sarah Ashley’s (Sarah) cattle to Darwin, he had to face several problems. First is when the cattle was caught by fire while the groups have their rest, the Drover tried his best to lead the cattle to a safer place. Second, is the part where he had to decide the fastest path to get water and to get to Darwin in time. The nearest water is a five-day ride, but Magarri remarks that across one of the deserts, a three-day ride, where there is water. Drover argues that there is no way they can drive across it, because there is not enough landmarks, so they will get lost and die. But he bravely agrees with the decision to take that path as King George willing to take them there. He also brave to confront the white people even he knows that he had been neglected by them. This is when Sarah invited him to the ball and told him that she had a special suit for him but he does not want to go. On that night after Sarah was dancing with King Carney, the crowd in the ball became silence and all eyes was staring at the entrance. It was the Drover! Sarah invited him for a dance, Foxtrot. They dance, as everyone is incredulous that she would dance with him since he associates with aborigines. There is another part where Nullah was almost been shot by Mr. Fletcher, the Drover risk his life to protect him.

The Drover was also a friendly person, especially to the aborigines. On their way to Faraway Dawns, he meets up with several of his friends. There was a man, running along side of his truck, saying hallo to him. Sarah was surprised because the man could catch up with the speed of the truck. On the next day, they met with an aboriginal girl, who wants the Drover to hang out with her but the Drover tells her that he is delivering a package. Sarah misunderstood his friendly manner as she was sure that the Drover is exploiting women down in Australia and they get into an argument.

The Drover is very well ordered with his work. When Lady Ashley fires Flitcher, he was very mad at her and said that he cannot drive her 1500 cattle by his own. He needs at least seven men to do that but now he has only three, himself, Magarri and other aborigine. He noticed that Nullahs mother and grandmother could ride the horses. Thus, he agreed to recruit them. Nullah volunteers and Sarah told him that she can ride a horse too. He explains that it is not an easy riding, but she insists. At the end, he manages to get the group for droving.

Everyone has a talent and so goes to the Drover has the talent to tame the horses. It seems that he is gifted, like what Lady Ashley said, “You really do have a gift with horses”. We could see it when he tries to tame Capriconia, Lady Ashley’s horse where she had given to the Drover as a gift of helping her sending the cattle to Darwin. Lady Ashley thinks that he could manage Faraway Downs but he was not interested.

The discrimination of the aborigines is widely shown in this movie. Unlike other white man, the Drover is different. He hates the way the whites treat the aborigines. He always hang out with his friend, Magarri, an aborigines even though he always being teas by the men at the bar. The Drover once married with an aborigine, which was also Magarri’s sister. Supposedly, a white man cannot marry an aborigine, it’s against the law. Since then, he is just like an outsider where he is not accepted in the white society neither in the Aboriginal society as he is a white man. Thus, he disagreed with the whites who discriminated the aborigines and there was one part where he said that, “Just because it is, doesn’t mean it should be”. It is the part in the bar where his friend, Magarri was not allowed to enter a white man’s bar, he cannot drink with them either.

The Drover is well known about the aborigine’s culture. He said that they cannot speak the dead person’s name when talking about them. It was when Nullah’s mother died because of drowning when she helps her son, Nullah hide in the water tank. During that time, one of the men from the car uses the faucet to cool down. This fills up the water tank. The same happened to Mr. Flynn when he was trampled by the cattle as his horse breaks a leg, sending him flying onto the ground. When they were helped by King George to get pass the dessert, the Drover explains that the aborigines have a song for every rock and landmark, allowing them to find a path. The Drover also understands that every aboriginal child will have to learn walkabout, where they had to learn travelling to become a man, a real man.

Alo!
I found my poem that I had wrote when I was in form 2. Well actually the poem was for my presentation for the Celcom Youth Ambassador (CYA) competition. I remember an event regarding this poem. At first, I didn't thought that my poem would be used for the presentation because supposedly the person in charge of making the poem was someone else, a form four student, a guy...

We both showed our poem and surprisingly mine was chosen. The guy left with a sour face. He throw away his masterpiece into the dustbin. I secretly picked it out and read it. Hm....I think it was good so I intend to keep it.

Can you help me judge which one is better??

Here's mine :
You said," I had a long dream...
                It was a very sad dream
                But what I saw wasn't one bit clouded...
I said," It's okay to cry,
           You have friends that stay by your side
           No matter what happens...

With standing the current
You Can't even raise your voice
It could be the end right there,
But....Life Goes On

This time you'll take off with courage
Spread the wings of your heart
And fly....
To the unseen future...


Here's the guy's poem :

Jejak pertama
Di gerbang duka
Hanya sayu dan pilu
Melihat anak-anak kecil
Menanti penuh pengharapan

Tiada wajah suka
Atau gembira
Yang tinggal hanyalah
Wajah penuh penderitaan
Menanti hari mendatang

Di hati kecil mereka hanya berkata
Oh...tuhan mengapa aku
Mengapa aku dilahirkan begini
Apa dosa aku, apa salah ibu bapaku
Mengapa aku menjadi mangsanya
Dikala orang bergembira
Mengapa aku di sini....

What do you think??
         

OMG! I can't continue my fast...I'm p****d!!!
So, my daily schdule had changed, I did all the cleaning from the dishes to laundry...
Fuh, I forget to say that I woke up late today, about 10a.m.
Asri went for his Physics class as the trial is coming....
I'm scared of him on Physics cause my mom teaches Physics and I know what my mom feels if her son fail.
Well I know it looks like pressure to Asri cause he had to struggle to get the best mark...
hm..I also felt the same when I was in Form 5...
but I do love Physics more than Bio, I told Asri that he had to be thankful that he did'nt took Bio for SPM, he replaced it with ICT. He also drop EST but he replaced it with Art, I know his good at it. So he took 10 subjects for his SPM copared to me, I only took 9 subjects in my SPM. If he mannage to 'defeat' me, I had to traet him with something (seems like i'm not very sincere to give a treat)...

Today I cooked my favourite dish : masak lemak cili api!!
Thank God its not too spicy if not the whole family will be in the toilet for years...

And then I went to watch Naruto Shippuden The Movie : BOND, the latest one...
it's quiet interesting, the meaning of the stories is about the bonding between friends, teachers...
even though Naruto looks like an idiot but he can understand people well and he shares his thought and experiance with them...
his bond between Kakashi, Jiraiya, and his best friend, that he promised to bring him back, Sasuke...

I also want to mention about Sai....his COOL....
Since they lost Sasuke (if you watch Naruto, you'll understand why Sasuke left), Sai had replaced him....and he is so so COOL....I don't know why I'm saying he is COOL maybe because the way he fights, smooth but I prefer to say it like an art...

If you'r a fan of Naruto, don't miss this movie!!!

Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini

Today is my first day at the Bazaar. I tell to my brothers to accompany me but they were just to lazy to get up. I got mad and storm out of house, rode the bicycle and arrive at the Bazaar. I don't like to quarel with them especially in Ramadan month. So I hold back my temper and stroll down the lane full of stalls. There's a lot of dishes serves there, various food, kuih-muih, murtabak, laksa, bubur lambuk, and don't forget my favourite, roti John. They also serve all kinds of drinks, pack ready into the plastics. I had planned to take a look at the cloths first and I found myself two nice tudung for rm17. Wait till my presentation on next next Thursday, i might wear it on that day. I also bought something for my brothers, well its food actually, the call me an order nasi ayam, burger and bubur lambuk, plus air tebu. For me, I bought laksa, roti john and soya bean. I arrive home about 7p.m. Its almost the time for our buka puasa. So I quickly call out my brothers, force them to prepare the table, while I rush to the toilet and have a quick bath. I don't like to go for a shower after I ate. I feel very uncomfortable in doing that. After dinner Asri ask me what we're going to eat for sahur?? hm...I guess I did'nt have the mood to cook for tomorrow so I ask him to make Maggi Goreng and some boiled eggs.
And now I thought of doing the character review on Drover, I had use almost all of time 'playing' so its time for me to start focusing on my homework....Chaiyo!!

Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini

I'M DOING THE COOK FOR TODAY!!
JUST SIMPLE ONES, FIRST I MADE "LAUK SINGGANG" OR CERTAIN PEOPLE CALL IT "KUAH KUNYIT", "SAMBAL SOTONG" AND IKAN GORENG MASAK CILI"
I ALSO MADE A DESSERT, EM NOT REALLY A DESERT, WE CALL IT ONDE-ONDE OR MAYBE EASY TO BE SIGNIFY AS KUIH MELAKA.

WELL THIS MY FIRST DISH AFTER MY LONG BREAK IN INTI, FOR THE FIRST SIX MONTH I WAS AT HOME, DOING MOM'S WORK, THAT IS COOKING BUT I LOVE TO DO THE DESSERT LIKE PUDDINGS, CAKES AND KUIH-MUIH.

ALL OF YOU SHOULD TRY MY "MASAK LEMAK CILI API" BUT I WARN YOU, ITS QUIET SPICY CAUSE I USUALLY PUT A LOTS OF CILI API IN IT, ITS A NEGERI SEMBILAN'S DISH AND THEY USUALLY LIKE TO COOK SPICIES DISHES. WELL I LIVE HERE FOR ALMOST 2 YEARS AND THIS IS MY THIRD YEAR IN N.9.

I WANT TO SHARE WITH YOU A HAIKU:

BEGGING FORGIVENESS
PARDON ON AIDILFITRI
A DOOR WIDE OPEN

WELL ACTUALLY I CAN'T UNDERSTAND HAIKU AT ALL, HOW THEY WERE MADE AND ESPECIALLY THE MEANING, IF ANYONE CAN TELL ME PLEASE.....

HERE'S ANOTHER ONE :

MIZU TANKU KOWASHITA YOU NA GATSU

THE BREAKING OF WATER TANK ON THE ROOF, SUDDEN DOWNPOURS IN SUMMER

WELL I GET THIS FROM A BOOK, I FOUND IT SEEMS VERY INTERESTING BUT ACTUALLY I CAN'T GET IT, THE MEANING OF COURSE...HUHUHU
HELP ME! - TASUKETE!

Nothing much its just that my parents are going to KL after the dinner, my mom wants to help grandma with the packing there and my father works tomorrow (today la cause I post this today). My mom left me with RM200 to spend for her days off maybe till Saturday. So I had to watch the house and my brothers while they are not around.

Hm...I rather watch the television or surfing the net than watching them, but what could I say its my responsibility right....I'm the eldest so I'm in charge of it.

Responsibility....I kind to hate that word, I'm the eldest so I have to show good attitudes to my brothers, I'm the eldest so I've to be the model in every aspect; especially in academic, they'll follow everything I did but mostly the bad things of course...I don't know either I'm capable in handling things like this, i mean the responsility, it seems hard to choose what is right and what is wrong, in the end you'll have to face the concequences from the choice you've done....

Actually, I don't know what I'm talking about, it sounds like trash right...

From what I know I'm not a mature adult, I still can't decide for the right choices, what I do really know that humans do make mistakes so I think its ok if I do mistakes in my life but I had to try to minimize or maybe avoide from making one...

Now I'm totally talking trash....

hm...so

Be The Best You Can Be

Speak kind words,
as you'll be heard and judged.

Love kindly and unselfishly,
with no wish to posses.

Give freely to all,
and you shall receive so much more.

Listen to the problems of others,
and your own shall be halved.

Live each day as your last,
treasuring each moment.

Strive to be greater,
than you were before.

Dream of what can be,
a world of peace and for all to share.

Just Be The Best You Can Be!!

Nothing much, its as the same as yesterday, the difference is what we ate for our 'Berbuka puasa' guess what??
Sate!!
Not from kajang...but the taste is good...I recommend you to come to Kuantan and try out our Satay Zul!!!
Its so delicious, you have to try it.

Well we ate sate because of an occasion. Do you want to know what it is??
It's my brothers Birthday, supposely we celebrate it tomorrow but as my dad and mom are going to KL tomorrow (and we are left alone) so we celebrate it early than the date : 24 August

My stomach was so full until I can't move. So I rest a while before going for my Maghrib prayer.

Now...I'm doing my homework on malaysian studies about the governing process in Malaysia and how the parliament members lost their seats during the mandate period.

SAHUR TIME....I woke up about 4.30 a.m. in the morning, went to the bathroom, wash my face, brush my teeth and...hm..too detail I guest..hehehe
Then I went to my brother's room, wake them up then I went to help my mother, preparing the meal for our first sahur.
After we had finished our meal, my brother, Fikri and Shukor helped me out (by force) with the dishes, I washed, they rinsed.

SUBUH TIME...Then I stayed in the room, waiting for the azan Subuh pray. Rigth after I had finished my solat, my brother, Asri came, secretly.Well actually I promised him to watch Supernatural together but I was so 'tired' and let him use my laptop alone.

MORNING....I wake up (about 9.00a.m. maybe) when I received a sms from Mr. Yee saying : "Selamat Berpuasa. Remember the significance of this Holy month and the reason for fasting"
That makes me to remembered something about him "Enjoy your time to the fullest" he always says that in class and I can kept my head of it.

So I make a schedule on my holiday time. My parents are busy right now so they don't have time to take us out for a vacation. My father is working office hour at Meteorology HQ in PJ, while my mother had planned to go to her mother's house (my grandma) in KL to give hand on moving their belongings to a new place as my grandma's place are going to be used to build....hm...something...I don't remember what it is...

EVENING...On that day, I'm going to do my math and some reading on malaysian studies. Then, I'll have my pleasure time watching movies until evening. I went for a shower about 5p.m. and went to help my mother with the cooking : "sayur tumis", "lauk singgang", "ikan goreng masak cili" and rendang ayam" (my favourite!!)

DINNER TIME....About 7.20p.m, the azan Maghrib is heard, that is the sign where we can open our fast, then we recite our doa, say thanks to God for what He had gave us. As usual I was left to do the cleaning alone, well I'm quite a tricky person so I said to Asri if he want to watch Supernatural again he has to help me with the dishes...hahaha

NIGHT....My father went to the surau for terawih with my brothers. I was left alone with my youngest brother, Latif. His quiet a naughty kid so my dad did'nt bring him along. So I had to watch over him (well actually I prefer to watch the movie rather than watching him). I slept early that night....~END OF MY FIRST DAY~

Starring: Samuel L. Jackson, Ashanti, Rick Gonzalez, Rob Brown, Antwoin Tanner, Debbi Morgan, Robert Ri’chard, Nana Gbewonyo, Channing Tatum
Directed by Thomas Carter
Produced by Michael Tollin, Brian Robbins, David Gale
Written by Mark Schwahn, John Gatins

Based on the true story of Coach Ken Carter, a controversial high school basketball coach played by Samuel L. Jackson. He is an ex-high school basketball player and sports store owner who is asked to coach the high school basketball team the Richmond Oilers his old high school in a poor area of Richmond, California, where he was a champion athlete before. The story of an inspirational schoolteacher who elevates his underachieving pupils to hitherto undreamed of heights. Jackson embodies the conviction and compassion of Ken Carter, the real life coach who gained notoriety in 1999 when he benched the unbeaten Richmond Oilers high school basketball team for their poor academic record. Coach Carte slowly begins to turn the team from inner city losers into student athletes.

Faced with a lackluster team, composed of underprivileged kids for who death or prison are a more likely option than college as much dismayed by the poor attitudes of his players as well as their dismal play performance, Carter sets about to change both. He immediately imposes a strict regime typified in written contracts that include stipulations for respectful behaviour and a dress code where the players have to wear a tie on game day. He also stipulates the players to maintain respectable grades of 2.3 and sit in the front row of classes. Other than that, he wants the team to become a united team or they would not play. Despite being met with a resounding cry of "this is bullshit," and the defection of some of the team's best players, Carter stands firm. Showing himself to be every bit as tough as the delinquent kids, he imposes a grueling regimen of training on the group of young men, which includes his own son, Damien Carter. Key word: student. Carter’s rigorous workout routine not only stretches the boundaries of the human body but also the mind.

Under Carter's inspirational guidance, the team goes on to win every one of their games and the community rallies behind them. The team becomes an undefeated competitor in the games and on its way to the 1999 State Championship. However, when the overconfident team's behaviour begins to stray and Carter received their low grades, he learns that too many players are doing poorly in class. He takes immediate action. To the outrage of the team, the school and the community, Carter cancels all team activities and locks the court until the team shows acceptable academic improvement. This angers both the parents and the school officials, but Carter refuses to back down. He received national attention when he locked the gym and benched the whole team for poor grades. Coach Carter received some praise and much more criticism for his decision. In the ensuing debate, Carter fights to keep his methods, determined to show the boys that they need to rely on more than sports for their futures even though the parents said that grades are not as important as the sport is. He wants the Oilers be the winners both on and off court and eventually he finds out that he had affected them more profoundly than he ever expected. Carter's ruthless methods not only bring him into conflict with the players and their parents, but also the school's principal , culminating in a showdown when he locks the gym and cancels games until the players' grades improve.

In addition, the film interweaves the story of the team's new found success with glimpses into the personal lives of the players. There's the drug dealing Timo Cruz, a rebellious teenager whose initial dismissal from the team leads to him hanging out with the local gang members, Lyle, who's heading for the same fate as his criminal father, and Kenyon Stone, who sees the prospect of college as a way of escaping the shackles of premature domesticity that loom with his pregnant girlfriend Kyra.

Watch it to know what happens next! You can download it in dc++ if you want or come to me to get a copy of it...

Qila and my friends from Actuarial Science class most of them had gone back today.
I don't want to go back early, I don't want to rush.
My father is working tomorrow. He could take a day off but I don't like him to that.
So here I am, waiting until tomorrow come, I hope the time pass smoothly.
I can't wait to meet my family. Well actually I can't wait to celebrate the first week of Ramadhan month, where I can dinner with my family and have my terawih together.

Mr. Yee said that we had to use our time to the fullest. That means I have to use my holiday time in the right way, that satisfy me of course.

So start for tomorrow I had planned various chores before I'm living this room for a week. I had 'force' Qila to clean up her place. Thus, my work for tomorrow are:
1. Wash the container, cups, water bottle, and fork and spoon.
2. Put all the laundry into the washer machine. Wait for 45 minutes
3. While waiting, iron all the baju kurung and tudung, and hang it nicely in the wardrobe
4. After 45 minutes, put the laundry into the drying machine. Wait until 28 minutes.
5. BRUNCH!! I'M HUNGRY!!
6. Fold (is it ok to use this word??) the laundry and put it into the wardrobe
7. Fill the bags with stuff that I want to bring back
8. Most important part : SWEEPING!!!

Ganbatte ne, Hitomi-chan!!!

Dodeche ar suga obso namjadurui maum
Wonhar ten onjego da juni ije tonande
Ironjog choumirago nonun thugbyorhadanun
Gu marur midosso negen hengbogiosso

Marur haji guresso nega shirhojyoda go
Nunchiga obnun nan nur bochegiman hesso
Norur yoghamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya
Sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika

Modungor swibge da jumyon gumbang shirhjungnenunge
Namjara durosso thollin mar gathjin anha
Dashinun sogji anhuri maum mogo bojiman
Todashi sarange munojinunge yoja ya

Onur urin heojyosso budi hengbogharago
Noboda johun sarammannagir barandago
Nodo darun namjarang togathe nar saranghanda go
Marhanten onjego
Sorjighi na nega jar doenungo shirho
Naboda yepun yoja manna hengboghage
Jar sarmyon otohge guroda nar jongmar ijoborimyon otohge
Nan irohge himdunde himduro juggenunde
Ajigdo nor nomu saranghanunde

Sarangur wihesoramyon modun da har su inun
Yojaui chaghan bonnungur iyong hajinun marajwo
Hanyojaro theona sarangbadgo sanunge
Irohge himdurgo oryourjur mollasso

Norur yoghamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya
Sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika

Norur yoghamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya
Sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika

TRANSLATION
I just cant understand the hearts of men
they tell you they want you and then they leave you
this is the first time, you're special
I believed those words and I was so happy

You should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you I'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything

i heard that if you give up things too easily
to a man, he will get bored with you
i don't think this is wrong
a girl says that she will never be fooled again
but she will fall in love again

you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed
me although I will curse you I'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything

[narration]
Hey babe the pain it's not enough to describe how i feel we were so happy together but I know now I've been blind you told me that you'd never let me down whenever I needed you you'd always be here I can forgive but I cant forget even though you hurt meI still love you I still love youDon't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love and her caring instinct U didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard Although i will curse you i'll still miss you Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything although i will curse you i'll still miss youBecause I am a girl, to whom love is everything

[the guy said]
there is a girl whom I love. Now I can`t stay with her, but I still love her

I'VE READ MAS'S BLOG ON ACTUARY SCIENCE...
AND WHAT A SHOCK!!
BEFORE THIS I ALWAYS ASK MYSELF "WHY DID I TAKE ACTUARY SCIENCE??"
MY FATHER HAD ASK ME IF I'VE HAD MAKE MY RIGHT DECISION...
HM....I THINK I DOUBT ABOUT IT...
DO I REALLY WANT TO DO ACTUARY??
IF YES, WHY??
I CAN'T ANSWER IT...

AT FIRST WHAT I KNEW ABOUT ACTUARY SCIENCE WAS MATHEMATIC BASED...
WELL I DO LOVE MATHS...EVENTHOUGH I ALWAYS HAD PROBLEMS WITH MY ADD MATH....HEHEHE...I TRULLY LOVE IT...

BUT NOW AFTER READING WHAT MAS HAD WROTE, THE FEELING OF UNCERTAINTY CAME...
DID I REALLY MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE??
I ALWAYS FACE TWO ROADS THAT I HAD TO CHOOSE BETWEEN THEM...
IT'S LIKE THE POEM "THE ROAD NOT TAKEN"
I REMEBERED ABOUT MY FRIEND, VAGESWARY, WHERE SHE HAD ONE SAID THAT I'M GOING TO FACE TWO ROAD IN MY LIFE THAT I HAVE TO MAKE A CHOICE WHERE THE CHOICE WILL CHANGE MY LIFE FOREVER. SHE SAID IT JUST BY SEEING MY PALM...WELL I DON'T IF IT'S TRUE UNTIL I FACE A LOT OF THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT I HAD TO CHOOSE

I REMEMBERED IT CLEARLY WHEN I WAS IN FORM 4, I DID'NT GET THE CHANCE TO FURTHER MY STUDIES INTO ANY BOARDING SCHOOL (SBP, MARA, ETC..). MY FATHER THOUGHT THAT I WAS DEPRESSED ABOUT IT THAT HE SECRETLY SENT AN APPEAL LETTER. SUPRISINGLY I GOT IT BUT I DON'T WANT TO GO.
THE ENROLEMENT IS AFTER THE MARCH SCHOOL HOLIDAY. ON THE WAY HOME, AFTER ME AND MY FAMILY HAD OUR HOLIDAY AT MY GRANDMA'S HOUSE AT KL, MY MOM ASK ME WHY I DID'NT WANT TO GO??
SHE WAS HOPING FOR ME TO GO TO A BOARDING SCHOOL. THUS SHE TRY HER BEST TO INFLUENCE ME TO GO. SO ALONG THE ROAD I WAS BEING "LACTURED" BECAUSE OF MY CHILDISH REASON THAT I HAD OPEN UP "A BUSINESS" AT SCHOOL AND I LIKE TO GO ON WITH IT. HOW FOOLISH I AM TO TELL SOMETHING LIKE THAT. AT LAST I AGREED WITH MY MOM SO THE NEXT MORNING I WENT OUT WITH MY DAD BUY THINGS TO BE BROUGHT TO TKC.

WELL THANK GOD I WENT THERE. I WAS'NT THOUGHT THAT I'LL BE GETTING A SCHOLARSHIP BUT AS I AM A TKCIAN I GOT IT. WELL AT FIRST THAT IT WAS HARD TO GET IT AND ONCE I'VE GOT MY HEAD CAN'T STOP THINKING THAT IT WAS BECAUSE I'M A TKCIAN THAT'S WHY I GOT IT. IT'S NOT BECAUSE OF MYSELF.
WELL I REALLY HATE TO SAID THAT BUT I JUST FEEL THAT'S THE REASON.

AND NOW, AFTER SPM, I HAD TO MAKE ANOTHER CHOICE,
WELL EVERYONE KNOWS THAT I'M A STRAIGHT A STUDENT {EVENTHOUGHT I ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT I'LL GET ONE B ON BIO} SO THEY EXPECT ME TO FURTHER MY STUDIES AT A BETTER PLACE. TRUE BUT IS IT REALLY SUITS ME??

IF I WNET TO MATRIX, I'LL BE AN ENGINEER
IF I WENT TO UM, I'LL BE A DOCTOR
AND IF I WENT TO INTI, I'LL BE AN ACTUARY {WELL I'M NOT RELLY SURE WHAT I'M GOING TO BE HERE}

AS I HAD TOOK THE JPA SCOLAR TO FURTHER MY STUDIES IN ACTUARY, THE PLACE WHERE I HAVE TO GO IS INTI.
SO HERE I AM, I TAKE IT BECAUSE I'VE GOT THE SCOLAR. IT'S A ONE LIFE TIME FOR ME. MOREOVER, MY PARENTS WOULD NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ME TALKING ABOUT NOT ENOUGH MONEY.

I HOPE THAT I'LL NOT REGRET ON WHAT I'M DOING NOW...

IS IT NICE??
I'VE JUST ADD SOME SONGS...
WELL ONLY 4...
BUT ENJOY!!

Everyone is talking about tomorrow....
Guess on what!?
Going Home!!

Thanks to me that I massage Ms Natasya to change accounting class from to 8 till 10 tomorrow...
So Everyone can go home early...
Well I'm not...
I had to wait my father from his work...
That is on Friday evening...

Qila, Mardhiah, Tiqa and Al had planned to go to the ktm at 1.00p.m. tomorrow....
While Mas had planned to go home early, that is on 12.00 p.m. right after mpw class...
Wow! she really misses home...hehehe

So, I'll be left alone again...
But I kind to get use to it...

I may not sing like Keith to expressed my feeling...
But to tell you the truth I really enjoy myself alone...

hm...I was wondering what I'm going to do this evening??
Any suggestion??
At first I want to watch movie...
but I don't have the mood to do it...
Second, I thought of taking a nap...
but I hardly sleep in daylight...
because I'm not a vampire of course.....hehehe....
Third, hm...how about washing??
I don't want to take home my dirty clothes...
INTI have the washing mashines so how about using it??
Nah...probably there's tones of load waiting outside the washer mashine...
Fourth, Going Out!!
but What's the planned?? Why I'm going out?? With who?? Where to go?? When?? How??

I'm Confused...what I'm supposed to do??

first time stay up doing my mpw assignment....
i hope i don't wake up late next morning...
if not i'll get scold by ms. dil....huhuhu
so pray that i'll wake up early...

minna oyasumi....

time for me to sleep...

(. +
+ ' .' tiny stars
' .+ ' shining
bright
time for me
to
say
good night,
so close your eyes
and
snuggle up
tight,

i'm
wishing
you all
sweet
dream
tonight..

I'm still awake doing homework!!
Usually I'll watch movie at this time...hehehe
and wake up late in the morning...
I don't want to make it a habit...
I try my best to change it...
Nankuranaisa!!
Ganbatte ne!!
Katy-chan!!
hehehe...

I felt scared when I saw the massage that Ken send to me....
He said, "W r havin eng now...at b4 l01..2 to 3pm..faster come!

I did'nt notice the previous massege from Vijeya...
She said,"Clas in b4l01. Nw!

Argh!!

Mas tried to call me but I can't hear her voice...
I don't know what's wrong but thank god she call...

I had made my handphone to silent mode for all accept calls...

What a terrible day...
Thank God I manage to be in Ms Dil class eventhough I had left out half of the lesson...
hm...I think not half maybe all because went I entered the class, my classmates are doing some exercises...I manage to copy it but I don't really understand it...I hope by reading the notes could help me...

If I have any problem, do help me...