HOW MY FUTURE GOING TO BE??

I'VE READ MAS'S BLOG ON ACTUARY SCIENCE...
AND WHAT A SHOCK!!
BEFORE THIS I ALWAYS ASK MYSELF "WHY DID I TAKE ACTUARY SCIENCE??"
MY FATHER HAD ASK ME IF I'VE HAD MAKE MY RIGHT DECISION...
HM....I THINK I DOUBT ABOUT IT...
DO I REALLY WANT TO DO ACTUARY??
IF YES, WHY??
I CAN'T ANSWER IT...

AT FIRST WHAT I KNEW ABOUT ACTUARY SCIENCE WAS MATHEMATIC BASED...
WELL I DO LOVE MATHS...EVENTHOUGH I ALWAYS HAD PROBLEMS WITH MY ADD MATH....HEHEHE...I TRULLY LOVE IT...

BUT NOW AFTER READING WHAT MAS HAD WROTE, THE FEELING OF UNCERTAINTY CAME...
DID I REALLY MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE??
I ALWAYS FACE TWO ROADS THAT I HAD TO CHOOSE BETWEEN THEM...
IT'S LIKE THE POEM "THE ROAD NOT TAKEN"
I REMEBERED ABOUT MY FRIEND, VAGESWARY, WHERE SHE HAD ONE SAID THAT I'M GOING TO FACE TWO ROAD IN MY LIFE THAT I HAVE TO MAKE A CHOICE WHERE THE CHOICE WILL CHANGE MY LIFE FOREVER. SHE SAID IT JUST BY SEEING MY PALM...WELL I DON'T IF IT'S TRUE UNTIL I FACE A LOT OF THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT I HAD TO CHOOSE

I REMEMBERED IT CLEARLY WHEN I WAS IN FORM 4, I DID'NT GET THE CHANCE TO FURTHER MY STUDIES INTO ANY BOARDING SCHOOL (SBP, MARA, ETC..). MY FATHER THOUGHT THAT I WAS DEPRESSED ABOUT IT THAT HE SECRETLY SENT AN APPEAL LETTER. SUPRISINGLY I GOT IT BUT I DON'T WANT TO GO.
THE ENROLEMENT IS AFTER THE MARCH SCHOOL HOLIDAY. ON THE WAY HOME, AFTER ME AND MY FAMILY HAD OUR HOLIDAY AT MY GRANDMA'S HOUSE AT KL, MY MOM ASK ME WHY I DID'NT WANT TO GO??
SHE WAS HOPING FOR ME TO GO TO A BOARDING SCHOOL. THUS SHE TRY HER BEST TO INFLUENCE ME TO GO. SO ALONG THE ROAD I WAS BEING "LACTURED" BECAUSE OF MY CHILDISH REASON THAT I HAD OPEN UP "A BUSINESS" AT SCHOOL AND I LIKE TO GO ON WITH IT. HOW FOOLISH I AM TO TELL SOMETHING LIKE THAT. AT LAST I AGREED WITH MY MOM SO THE NEXT MORNING I WENT OUT WITH MY DAD BUY THINGS TO BE BROUGHT TO TKC.

WELL THANK GOD I WENT THERE. I WAS'NT THOUGHT THAT I'LL BE GETTING A SCHOLARSHIP BUT AS I AM A TKCIAN I GOT IT. WELL AT FIRST THAT IT WAS HARD TO GET IT AND ONCE I'VE GOT MY HEAD CAN'T STOP THINKING THAT IT WAS BECAUSE I'M A TKCIAN THAT'S WHY I GOT IT. IT'S NOT BECAUSE OF MYSELF.
WELL I REALLY HATE TO SAID THAT BUT I JUST FEEL THAT'S THE REASON.

AND NOW, AFTER SPM, I HAD TO MAKE ANOTHER CHOICE,
WELL EVERYONE KNOWS THAT I'M A STRAIGHT A STUDENT {EVENTHOUGHT I ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT I'LL GET ONE B ON BIO} SO THEY EXPECT ME TO FURTHER MY STUDIES AT A BETTER PLACE. TRUE BUT IS IT REALLY SUITS ME??

IF I WNET TO MATRIX, I'LL BE AN ENGINEER
IF I WENT TO UM, I'LL BE A DOCTOR
AND IF I WENT TO INTI, I'LL BE AN ACTUARY {WELL I'M NOT RELLY SURE WHAT I'M GOING TO BE HERE}

AS I HAD TOOK THE JPA SCOLAR TO FURTHER MY STUDIES IN ACTUARY, THE PLACE WHERE I HAVE TO GO IS INTI.
SO HERE I AM, I TAKE IT BECAUSE I'VE GOT THE SCOLAR. IT'S A ONE LIFE TIME FOR ME. MOREOVER, MY PARENTS WOULD NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ME TALKING ABOUT NOT ENOUGH MONEY.

I HOPE THAT I'LL NOT REGRET ON WHAT I'M DOING NOW...